I did all the things but…

I did all the things but…

I can not stop thinking about Tuesday…

It was such a productive day. I literally did all the things. Took the girls to VBS, grabbed a coffee, payed all the bills, started a load of laundry, took big kids to the dentist, Picked up girls from VBS, went to lunch, got biggest kid a hair cut, went back to dentist to fill a cavity and pull a baby tooth, went home and finished laundry, sewed the football jersey, took big kid to football practice, cooked the dinner, picked up big kid from football, bathed the girls, bedtime with a story and a song. BAMB

But there is one thing I didn’t do and it kept me up late in the night. Why didn’t I just do it?

While at Chic fil a with the kids for lunch there was a momma with two boys. One was about 6 and the other about 3. She was holding the (big) 3 year old in one arm and holding the other’s hand. The 7 year old was letting out a constant grown of discomfort and the 3 year old was flailing in a fit as the momma struggled to carry him from one table to the other. This wasn’t the typical kid fit. Something else developmentally or sensory was going on (not that that even matters). My kids were staring at them like their life depended on it. My biggest kid says, ” Mom if that was one of us you would snatch us to the bathroom for a spank.” and all my others started laughing. I quickly zipped there mouths and gave a big long compassion speech. But that was all I did. That was it.

I hadkingdom-woman-square a little voice in me saying, ‘Go ask her if she needs help.” and I didn’t do it. I thought, I might make it worse for the mom? I thought maybe this doesn’t phase her like it does others? But the voice said, Go ask her if she needs help and I didn’t listen. Aargh!

All the things I did that day? Non of them did anything for the Kingdom of God.

I’m sad that I missed this opportunity to love on another mom but I am also grateful for the reminder it has given me to be more thoughtful of Kingdom things than worldly things.

If your TO DO list is full of things but no Kingdom things… throw it out.

Lord, make me a woman who serves your Kingdom First and always. Make your voice louder that any other’s my ears can hear.


For no one can lay any other foundation than the one we already have-Jesus Christ. Now anyone who builds on that foundation may use gold, silver, jewels, wood, hay or straw. But there is going to come a time of testing at the judgment day to see what kind of work each builder has done. Everyone’s work will be out through the fire to see whether or not it keeps its value. 1 Corinthians 3:11-13



Love them like I love you…LGBTQ

So, I have to tell you all about this book I read called “A war of Loves”. I could not put it down! It has changed my entire perspective of the LGBTQI community and it has convicted me in so many ways.

So this is the background of the book. A man named David Bennett(the author) came out to his family when he was 14. He went to a Christian school. He was treated poorly by most of his peers. He completely rebelled against the word of God and his Christian faith. I don’t want to give to much away because you must read this book for yourself BUT he gets saved in the most unlikely place, the Lord speaks to Him, his heart is softened and He is changed forever. He still calls himself a gay man but knows his true identity is in Jesus and he has sacrificed his sexual life to the Lord and lives a celibate life because he believes the word of God.

Over the past several years I have felt a “burden of a need”(what ever that even means:)) for the Lord to teach me how to love gay people well. Doesn’t that sound so gross. I’m a 37 year old Christian woman and I need to be taught how to love gay people? I know Eww, BUT What I have discovered is, it has never been about me not loving them. I have always loved gay people. I have family members and good friends that are gay. Being a performer I met and loved many gay people. Without a few of them I probably would have been found dead in the back alley of a dance club a time or two. No, the question is not how do I love them because I already do. The question is how do I love them like Jesus loves them?

His answer, The same way I love you.

I cried like a big fat baby reading the conversations the author had with the Lord. It remiwoman-adultery-mary-magadalene-Christ_and_the_sinner-copynded me of exactly how Jesus pursued me. How could I forget? How has my testimony become “what God did for me” instead of “what God continues to do for me”? Jesus walks with me Relentlessly, Perfectly and right where I am, inside my sin. How is that different from anyone else? It’s not!

The only way to love anyone well is to love them right where they are because that’s how Jesus loves us.

  1. We must stop believing that it is our job to tell someone what there sin is. Jesus tells us in Matthew 7:4-5 to remove the log out of our own eye before we offer to get the speck out of another’s eye. We must remember his purpose in saying this was not to condone other’s sin but so that we may become humble in our relationship with the Lord and in turn become compassionate to others because we know the weight of our own sin. There is absolutely a time to speak truthfully to our friends about each other’s sin because we love each other. This conversation is only followed though by gradually  growing in relationship with this friend. Loving them fully and becoming a trusted friend. It would be a very rare instance where the Holy Spirit would lead any one of us to announce the sin of a stranger. Or to proclaim in on the internet.
  2. We must stop believing that we have any ability to save anyone. Isn’t it just like us as humans to come to the notion that we can save a soul. Out of my love for Jesus I have absolutely thought about saving people’s souls! Like, how cool because I know how much their life would change for the better and like I would totally earn some God points if I like SAVED someone. Gross.  Our own good intentions apart from the Holy Spirit is a sad day for the Kingdom of God. The job is done. The mission is complete. Our ONLY job is to tell others what Jesus has done for us and HE does the rest. HIM! He does it. John 15:4 Abide in me and I will abide on you. For a branch cannot produce fruit if it is severed form the vine. and you cannot be fruitful apart from me. I am guilty.
  3. We must stop believing that the FIRST thing Jesus would say to a sinner is stop sinning. I have yet to find anywhere in scripture where the First thing Jesus says to some one is Stop Sinning. Yes, In John 5:14 Jesus tells the Lame man, stop sinning or something even worse may happen BUT not before He tells him your sins are forgiven. Yes, In John 8:11 He tells the prostitute Go and sin no more BUT not before He says Neither do I condemn you.  Let’s do what Jesus does FIRST. Let’s tell others their sins are forgiven. This is what softens their hearts to the King of the world, Jesus.

Last but certainly NOT least I have to talk about the author’s decision to be celibate in honor of his love for our Savior. I am absolutely in aww of David’s righteous decision here and I KNOW our father in heaven is just jumping for joy that David got it! David heard God, David ran so hard after Jesus that he got it! David so loves Jesus that he has given up his earthly desires so that he may be of service to Jesus. I mean come on!! What have I ever given up that I truly desired? Phew. ALSO, How super duper precious is it that David (the author) is named David, who in the bible is considered to be a man after God’s own heart?! It may have been just a nice name to his mom at the time BUT God! Oh But God Knew.

I find it hilarious that the song that is playing at the Juice bar right now is Aerosmith’s “Walk this way”, cause really, all Jesus wants us to do is love people in a way that when He tells them to “walk His way” they will not hesitate.

Be a blessing today!




So the Party Began..

So the Party Began..

        for this son of mine was dead and has now returned to life. He was lost, but now he is found. So, the party began. Luke 15:24

      I once was lost but now I am found. Where you lost once? Are you still lost? Your father is running to you! He is ready to welcome you, adorn you with clothes and jewels and put shoes (Yes, Please!) on your feet!

When I was a young girl my Uncle asked me, What do you want to be when you grow up? I said,” I want to be a Party Girl (No R’s in my vocab yet.)!” . The laughter rang out throughout the family and this is when the Party Girl was born. I grew and I partied like it was 1999 all the time! I even partied when it actually was 1999! Now, I still love to party, I just Party more like it’s 2019 and I’ve got a lot of kids and I’m tired.

Since the day I found Jesus, He has been peeling the lies off my life one layer at a time.. A few years ago, after the Lord told me I would go into ministry, I was sitting in church listening to my pastor teach the protocol son story. I had read this story a thousand times as it was, in a sense “my” story.  It became knew this time and I was flooded with gratitude for all the Lord had done in my life since I found Him. Then as I’m reading along with my pastor in my bible, the red letters say, So, the party began (Luke 15:24). It was as if my heart skipped a beat. Weeks before this, I had been reading Ephesians and Ephesians 4:24 jumped off the page. You must display a new nature because you are a new person, created in God’s likeness- Holy Righteous and True. These two scriptures collided that day and I felt the Lord say, You are my Party Girl-Holy, Righteous and True. All of my past felt redeemed in that moment. Before this, if I would have heard the phrase, “Party Girl” my heart would have winced in silent pain and regret. On that day though, the Holy Spirit took that label, cleared  out all the sin and filled it up with all of His truth. Isn’t it just like our God to turn the very things of this world that haunt us, into the very things He created us for to bring Him glory! Only God !

I tell this story to encourage you today. If you feel lost, IF you have deliberately run from the Lord, IF you are full of regret or shame, Go to your father in heaven. He is searching for you. He is longing to redeem ever part of you.

And can I just say, There ain’t no party like a Jesus party!

Good Freedom Friday!


Romans 5:12 – When Adam sinned, sin entered the human race. Adam’s sin brought death, so death spread to everyone, for everyone sinned.

Romans 5:17- The sin of this one man, Adam, caused death to rule over us , but all who receive God’s wonderful, gracious gift of righteousness will live in triumph over sin and death through this one man, Jesus Christ.

Romans 5:6-11- When we were utterly helpless, Christ came as just the right time and died for us sinners. But God showed hi  great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners. And since we have been made right in God’s sight by the blood of Christ, he will certainly save us from God’s judgment. For since we were restored to friendship with God by the death of His son while we were still his enemies we will certainly be delivered from eternal punishment by his life. So now we can rejoice in our wonderful new relationship with God. All because of what our Lord Jesus Christ has done for us in making us friends of God.


It’s a GOOD Freedom Friday!!
I am loving what the Lord is doing through these Freedom Fridays. Especially in me. These are all things I am learning myself. I am a struggler. I want to “get it right” “for God”. I bind myself in needless worries when all I really have to do is love people, tell about what God has done for me and He does the rest. The Freedom in His love and sacrifice is sufficient. Happy Easter! I hope your holiday is especially filled with the Power of the Holy Spirit.

By nature…

Ephesians 2:3 says that we are all “by nature children of wrath.” If we are all “by nature children of wrath,” it can only be because we are all by nature sinners — for God does not direct His wrath towards those who are not guilty. God did not create the human race sinful, but upright. But we fell into sin and became sinful due to the sin of Adam.

Yes, you very well may have been born this way BUT you certainly were not born again this way.

Jesus answered, “Very truly I tell you, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless they are born of water and the Spirit. Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit.You should not be surprised at my saying, ‘You must be born again.’ John 3:5-7

Put on your new nature, created to be like God- Holy, righteous and true. Ephesians 4:24

My heart aches for anyone who is being told that the sin they were born with is not only unredeemable (or redeemed by a false notion) but it is also their identity. Isn’t that exactly what the enemy wants us to believe?

Jesus overcame the world. Jesus overcame your sin and he rose again to be sure that you had the power to overcome it on this side of heaven.

I pray truth and freedom for you all today💕

Freedom from the familiar and worldly


“There is FREEDOM to be found in letting go of the familiar, worldly ways of measuring a human life.”

I found this quote by Soren Kierkegaard, an amazing thinker of the 19th century and it is rocking my world!

How easy is it for us to measure ourselves and others based on what is familiar to us in this world?!

Well, once in Christ, we are no longer of this world. When we look to the specific spiritual gifts that we have been given by the Holy Spirit, there is where we find the measure of our life.

In 1 Corinthians 12:8-11 it tells us of the different gifts the Holy Spirit gives to us. I encourage you to read the word of God, find out what your spiritual gifts are and operate in the freedom of those gifts.